But I'm trying to find solace in the silver linings:
Silver Lining #1 - An Impromptu Trip to Wilmington, North Carolina
... to see my parents. It's hard not to be humbled by the ocean.
And it's hard not to feel happy when I look at this:
Silver Lining #2 - Not Giving a Shit
In my haste in packing, I forgot to pack a hair brush, and a hair dryer. The result? I have not brushed or blown my hair dry in four days (yes, I have showered, I am not that depressed peoples). The result has been a wavy frizzball that I didn't know existed. But you know what? I don't give a shit. And there is something freeing in that. I'm just letting it go. Watch out Wilmington.
Silver Lining #3 - I'm Super Skinny
As I've written about before, when I get stressed, I lose my appetite. Completely. So, those extra few pounds I gained in the Caymans? Gone. And then some. Nothing like a major life crisis to get your body back in shape.
Silver Lining #4 - All of You
I'll be honest. I've gotten word of disapproval from a choice few that I chose to express my discontent on such a public forum. To those people, I am sorry. But come on, you know me. Am I ever one to be silenced?
The support I have gotten in the past few days has been nothing short of incredible. I am so appreciative of the comments, the emails, the phone calls, the texts. When I am having a low moment (and I'm having many of those, unfortunately), I literally scroll through all of the words of support and just reread everything. It gives me a sense of strength. It makes me feel less alone. Thank you.
Silver Lining #5 - I'm Not Sure
For the past 20 minutes, I have been sitting here watching the Bachelor and wracking my brain for another positive out of this whole thing. I can't sincerely think of one right now. I'm sure it's something like a recognition of an inner strength or a life wake up call or some other BS that someday I will believe, but right now I'm just not feeling it. So stay tuned for this one.
But I will say this: At the end of the day, I still believe I am lucky. We are all healthy. We are all here. We will survive. And we will all be happy again. In one way or another.
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8 comments:
I am so sorry for whatever bomb has been dropped on you! Dropped bombs SUCK and I always feel so horrible for whomever they happen to.
I wish you whatever peace possible.
Love!!
I hope that somehow things will get better for you. You are clearly an intelligent, funny woman who loves her two children very much. You will get through this.
Thinking of you.
I am sorry for what you are dealing with, whatever it is. Just know your words have helped me so much and you have reached someone people in such a short time- you rock!
Ughhh...sorry to hear it! You will get through it woman! Power on... BTW, I read your blog every week from Minneapolis. :)
I'm glad you are finding silver linings. Though we may not know you personally, know that we are rooting for you and your happiness.
I am so sorry for what you may be going through. I wish that I could give you a hug. I agree with the previous comment that we are rooting for your happiness.
I'm sorry for what you are going through, and hope that by the time I've posted this, things are better. As a lawyer mom, I love your blog, and hope that you know how talented you are.
THANK YOU all for your comments. Truly.
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